being cheated

It's when you learn that the sun's gravity can bend light and make a star in the east appear forty five degrees away from its real location. Or, when light from another star finally lands into your good ol' pair of lenses, though the giant fucking ball had exploded even before the first strings of protein (that would eventually become you and the neighbors you so hated) were glued by chance or by some earthly gods.

So it often happens--that upon your admiration of the sky in a cloudless night, you take pleasure in being cheated by things that are not actually there or have been--for the longest time--dead.

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Now on the third day of reading A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking and the farthest I've gone is the fourth chapter. I'm virtually drunk with all the physics but I swear upon my future grave, I'll finish this book. Hell, it's no easy read, but worth the headache.

delayed reaction

"What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them — that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long no longer apply."

Enough said; guess we all gotta move on. Cheers for godfather Barack.
god forgive me for making no argument at all.

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And this, I look forward to.

"To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it."

amen. amen. because indifference is a crime.

Nawa'y hindi suwagin ng Ox

to learn as much from the people I'm yet to meet
to ditch a longstanding comfort I call INDIFFERENCE
to love more, and more, and more, if chance would allow

hello, this is my agenda for 2009!
where do i toss my wish for a much better year? gosh, how do i reboot?

TAKIP-SILIM: Twilight pirated version

Kasi pare ganito daw yun. May isa daw babae na hot daw pare. Pero maputla siya kasi hindi siya inalagaan ng nanay niya pare. Tapos pare emo daw siya kasi nga daw hindi siya mahal ng mundo at para siyang patay na bata na galit sa mundo. Tapos pare, lumipat daw siya ng tirahan kasi daw masyado daw siyang emo para sa luma niyang tirahan. Sabi niya sa nanay niya "Tangina mo 'nay gusto ko lumipat kay 'tay." Tangina pare, hindi nagalit nanay niya. Sabi lang ng nanay niya "Tangina mo pare, wag ka magmura."

So lumipat siya sa tatay niya 'di ba? Pagkarating niya dun sabi niya, "Tangina erpat bakit maulan dito?" Sabi ng erpat niya, "Gago 'bur' months na! Malamig na tangena." So nagtaka 'yung babaeng simula ngayon ay tatawagin na lang nating "babaeng maputla at emo."

So pumasok siya sa school 'di ba? Binigyan siya ng truck ng tatay niya pare. Sabi ng tatay niya "Tangina mo sa 'yo na tong truck ko." Sabi niya, "Salamat, tay."

Pagkarating niyang school tsong, may nakita siyang lalaking mukhang bangkay pero pogi. Sakto. Pogi pero mukhang bangkay. Sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "Hot pare."

Nung Chem lab na ni babaeng maputla at emo, natagpuan niyang lab partner niya 'yung poging bangkay. So nung tinignan siya nung poging bangkay, ang asim ng mukha nito. Mukhang nandiri ata kay babaeng maputla at emo.

Sabi ni poging bangkay, "Tangina mo." Sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo, "Tangina KA." Sabi ni poging bangkay, "Tangina NIYA oh." *tumuro sa teacher nila* Sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "Oo nga noh. TANGINA MO." Sabi ni poging bangkay, "Tangina mo, gago bampira ako." Tapos naghubad siya ng damit at kumintab ang katawan niya kasi nilagyan niya ng glitters ang abs niya kasi tigas siya at ganun na ang mga tigas ngayon na nagpupuntang Emba.

So pare na in-love si babaeng maputla at emo kay poging bangkay. Si poging bangkay naman sige lang kasi sex din daw yun. So ayun. Ang shweet shweet nila.

"Eow poh... ahihihihi"

"Bebe mwahugz,..... ^^,"

So tapos nun nagpunta sila sa damuhan kasi.... alam mo na. Tapos sabi ni poging bangkay "Ikaw na buhay ko ngayon." Sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "Tangina mo gago patay ka na." Sabi ni poging bangkay, "TANGINA KA."

Tapos nag-sex sila.

So basically pare, 'yun lang 'yung mga importanteng nangyari sa buong storya. Intense noh? Kaya pala nahu-hook lahat ng tao.

*Repost from Carson's multiply*

FANS, PLEASE DONT HATE ME :D

dearest,

You have to know that I have a lot of insecurities springing from the fact that I’m so bad at running my own life: I go to work but I don’t deliver, I don’t know where to go (so I guess I won’t be going anywhere), I don’t know what I want (so I guess I won’t be getting anything). I’d be dragging you to the mire if I say ‘let’s be together’ and that’s bad news for both of us—you’re smart so I know you’d agree.

You’re well aware, too, that I have a hell lot of baggage (the same ones you used to carry) that’s been weighing me down since time-I-refuse-to-remember. Not healthy. So there, this space is surely not enough to contain all the disadvantages of being with someone who lives in a shit hole. FYI, some close friends think I got no sufficient EQ to keep a romantic relationship—coming from people who've been with me for long, I'm certain there's some truth in that.

When I said I like you, I meant it like I’m like willing to shake the goddamn universe—if only I’m capable—though it probably seemed like a joke so badly delivered. Well, I like you. You’re like a shot of morphine. And I’m not kidding.

(Take that! Hiyah, hiyah, wapak!)

Given these, I'd have to ask: Are you willing to go through all the trouble?

P.S. And now I can't help but wish all Saturdays're the same.